Right now it's Saturday afternoon and instead of engaging in my customary habit of channel surfing while my daughter naps, I'm sitting in front of my laptop typing this entry.
This fast is one of the smartest things I've ever done.
I thought I'd be lost and lonely without Facebook and television to keep me company but nothing could be farther from the truth.
Instead I feel more focused than I've been in a really long time.
I'm able to sit still for 20 minutes and have an uninterrupted conversation with my boyfriend.
I can read a magazine from cover to cover, jotting down the recipes I'd like to try.
When I have broken my fast it was to spend time with Lorenzo. When he asked me to make pancakes and watch the season premiere of The Cleveland Show with him, I didn't have to think twice before saying yes.
I'm ashamed to admit this but there was a time when the answer would have been no.
I would have had dishes to wash or the baby to tend to.
I would have hemmed and hawed and complained about missing a repeat of The Office or something similarly stupid. Bottom line: I never made time for my relationship.
That has to change.
Doing this fast has helped me put tv, Facebook and even junk food back into their proper places.
They can be fun diversions but shouldn't be used to help me get through life.
Such an important reminder to self-reflect every once in awhile and be sure we are focused on the right aspects of our life. Good luck...I'm sure you'll get through it and emerge stronger!
ReplyDeleteOk, I'm so amped that you have a blog! I loved reading your blogs on Myspace and delighted to find you here. I think taking a break is healthy and much needed. Letting go of "stuff" that means nothing is worth tending to what means everything! In relationships it is a MUST to be attentive and nuturing.. If we dont do our parts as women... Some other chick will gladly take over. Good stuff cuz!
ReplyDeleteThanks Kerry!!
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